Hope for the Lazy Saturday


Author: Chara Donahue

It was early Saturday, my husband leaned over to me and whispered he was going to go to the gym for his jujitsu class. Perfect, I thought, he will take the little ones with him, and I will go back to sleep. What a beautiful plan; he is so wonderful; I love sleep, all drifted through my head as my eyelids surrendered to their heaviness. Then about 20 minutes later he said he wasn't going to go. I half-jokingly glared at him and said, "Rude." Selflessness, FAIL.

I had hoped I would escape coming face to face with the pressure to get up. He reassured me that I could retreat back into slumber, but I knew I wouldn't. Saturday mornings when there is time to make breakfast, slowly sip coffee, and talk with slowly-waking children are sweet times, and I don't want to miss them. I treasure those type of mornings, of parental demand mixed with the anticipation of joy. I lingered in bed but was determined to get up in attempts to both choose love and assuage guilt.

Then my husband rallied, like a freaking rock star, and decided to go anyway. I nestled into the sanctuary of my pillow, and silently rejoiced at the chance to just be. I listened to the hints of fall gently blow through the yard. Our open window provided an inlet for the cool of the early morning to keep the second story stuffiness at bay, and I was soothed back to sleep by the sweet dance of my curtains breathing in and out. I found peace in the physical reminder that new seasons are just around the corner.

I slept for a while and woke on my own accord, which is quite a luxury when you have four children. Then I disturbed the splendorI picked up my phone. Dun,dun,dun... slowly, without conscious effort, I obstructed the peace. The world was accessible right there in the little magic box. Email, Twitter, and Facebook are all luxuries, and yet they disturbed the shalom I had so been enjoying.

The brief glimpse of freedom from the hustle, the clamor, and the weight of everything that battles for a place on my shoulders stripped away by a pithy perusal of the phone. I had invited it back in, I would soon push it off, back into the hands of God where it belongs, but temporarily the weight bore down.

What was I doing?

I hadn't even emerged from the covers that keep me warm at night, and I was already trying to ooze productivity. Seeking out purpose, I laid there reading an article called: StopWasting Time, Especially When It Comes to Social Media.

Was I attempting to drown myself in a pool of self-designed irony?

I took the moment to breathe, to be. I regrouped. I clicked on the article because, really, I had already asked myself if lying in bed had been a waste of time. There is so much to do, so many little things to tackle. I wondered if the rest was worth the high priced currency of time it demanded. Is it worth it to just be?

I know God puts value on rest, and yet I find that often this can be one of the harder things for me to believe. Knowing my own propensity to self-deceive, I wonder if I abuse the knowledge that God values rest? Do I manipulate the idea of obeying His command to rest as a defense for my own languor. I CANNOT read Proverbs 6:6 without feeling LAZY, "Go to the ant, O sluggard; consider her ways, and be wise."

Even if I work all day I don't know if I will ever work as hard as an ant. Really, those pests are relentlessly focused. However, I long to be wise. "Blessed is the one who finds wisdom, and the one who gets understanding.[1]" It's clear the indolent and the sluggards don't often see the precious fruits of purpose, so I search for wisdom like the ant seeks out unattended food. I scour for the answer that will alleviate the tension I find between the beauty of being and purposeful living.

For now I'll just be over here in my comfy bed, or out in my city trying to bust out some passionate purpose, and I will keep praying for wisdom. I will search to discover how to dance between the two, with hopes that in whatever I do, I do it all for the glory of God[2], and I will rest in knowing that whether I BE or I GO there is grace for it all. For is by grace I have been saved through faith. It is so much bigger, it is a gift from God[3].

How do you find the balance between the beauty of being and passionate purpose? Let us know in the comments.
As always, thank you for reading!

[1] Proverbs 3:13
[2] 1 Corinthians 10:31
[3] Ephesians 2:8

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  1. Hi Chara,

    I'm glad you got a break and I'm thankful God gives us grace in all of life...For me, I daily ask God to give me wisdom (James 1:5) because I don't have the wisdom to know what is best in the going or the being although I've slowly learned if I first spend time just being with God, He will then direct me in the going...hope I answered your question...visiting from Holley's blog :-)

    1. He is so faithful to guide us. I love that verse as well. Thank you for visiting Dolly. :)

  2. "For now I'll just be over here in my comfy bed, or out in my city trying to bust out some passionate purpose, and I will keep praying for wisdom." -- Like a seesaw - we tip toward these two things almost endlessly ... but it is that third - the fulcrum - the praying for wisdom which hinges it all. Thank you for the reminder.

    1. It does keep life exciting. ;) Thank you for reading.

  3. "I scour for the answer that will alleviate the tension I find between the beauty of being and purposeful living." Oh, me too. That speaks right to my soul. And maybe that's just it. Maybe we won't alleviate the tension but learn to live with--no, rejoice in!--the back and forth.

    1. I am all for rejoicing in the tension! It is always there anyway. ;) Thanks for stopping by.

  4. I am working harder to to know to put my phone down, too. I tend to rely too heavily on it to have something to read or to look at when I'm tired of sounding out "Moo, Baa, La La La" for the seventh time. But it removes me from my life, just a little bit... a little too much. So I'm working on being more present - to be with my baby or my husband, to read, to write. Just to DO MORE with the time I already had but was wasting scrolling trhough Instagram for the tenth time today.

  5. "I will dance between the two..." I love this, especially since I hadn't quite thought of being and purpose together and somewhat at odds. But it is a dance. A dance between resting and waking. Doing and waiting. Accepting rest and pursuing purpose. Grace and action. Pleasure and mundane.

    So thought-provoking.


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